Saturday, August 25, 2007

In Cruce Triumphans


''Kung di tayo kikibo, sino ang kikibo? Kung hindi taya kikilos, sino ang kikilos? Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa?''

Dishonoring the memory of heroes has never been done more effectively than by the current administration. As an ordinary citizen living in a different country, who am I to complain? This holiday economics policy has resulted to more friends being able to visit me here in the Lion City anyway. The big group I went with last week had an action-packed 3 day itinerary that included being washed out in both the Bird Park and Sentosa (ako ata ang may balat sa pwet as this was the second time that my Sentosa adventure was rained out), taking pictures of all the monuments, making the obligatory river cruise and shopping along the avenues, eating the Singaporean staples at the hawker centers and just about any other thing that tourists do here (including being among the throng that eagerly waited for the fireworks display). Aching legs nonetheless, I had a very nice time discovering the sights and sounds of Singapura!

Conflicts more often arise due to a clash of personalities. In recent years, I have been at the forefront of friends fighting with each other. The best of friends could indeed become the worst of enemies. It saddens me to see them that way. The hardest thing to do actually is to stop myself from taking sides. It is also a good thing that those involved have never asked me to choose which side I'm on. Otherwise, I would have been furious at them and say "IDGAD. IAMMOB." Giving way has never been so hard. I often wonder, have we become so engrossed on ourselves that we forget the impact of what we do on other people? I for one have been giving way all the time (and this is not self-righteous fact) to many, (not just to my friends) and so it pained me to hear a remark - "nagtatago ka raw? (I was hiding from this person)" when in fact I had rescued that person from a financial emergency!

2007 is the year to finally contribute one's genes to the burgeoning population. One cousin is about to give birth while her sister is pregnant, and another friend will be having fraternal twins. I hope it is also the best year for switching careers (yeah still the same goal) and for passing the ultimate-never-again-please-do-not-repeat-exam (THE BAR). In a few days, my littlest brother will be taking it in the same place I did 9 years ago (Has it been that long???). He will also be staying in the same hotel and maybe, experience the same anxieties and panicky feelings (I did enjoy the breakfast buffet though!). With the 2 Manaoag trips, countless dine outs and movie screenings and sirang plaka advice from the entire family, I am keeping my fingers crossed and wishing for the best for him!

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Brick wall


The past two weeks have been another "limbo" type experience, caused primarily by frustrations on the home front (an oft repeated experience that I have judiciously tried to extinguish from my subconscious) that has led me to feel rage of immense proportions. Am I the only one who thinks it unjust that unqualified and corrupt people should not be appointed in the highest echelons of the judicial system? I am tired of hearing the remark (though it is given with the best of intentions) that a person is better off not being within the system because he will be swallowed by its corruption. Right. Talk about consuelo de bobo. One day, I hope that "they" will wake up to this brand new definition of public service and realize it is not what they want. Until such time happens, I shall never ever feel anything anymore. Giving a damn is indeed a waste of time.
Watching the Thai horror flick "Alone" proved to be quite an experience as I was restless the entire time because my Indonesian friend (you know who you are!) proved to be such a scaredy cat who clung to me everytime there were apparitions or flashes of "Sadako-like" images. This is what I get for daring him to watch the movie. Horror movies have never really frightened me. The closest that one got to scaring me off my wits' end was The Exorcist. I couldn't really stand that green puke or the fact that she could turn her head all the way!
This week was also my first time to celebrate National Day. I feel envious of the great fervor that the citizens here feel for their country. I guess they cannot help but be proud for having built a strong nation out of the backwater region kicked out of Malaysia. Discovery Channel aired a special on the island state in commemoration of its 42 years of existence. So "singa" is the malay word for lion. And "sia" in Malaysia actually stands for Singapore. It was also amazing to see LKY shed tears on television. And it was not just for show mind you. Ahhh to be middle age and prosperous!
To get rid of my "stress," I went on a shopping binge buying all sorts of nonsensical stuff. In doing so, I finally discovered the closest thing to heaven here - Kinokuniya! Supposedly the largest bookstore in Southeast Asia, bookworms can get lost inside excavating through the mass of titles. I do not know how it compares to the newly opened Fully Booked in the Fort though. But Eslite of Taipei still gets my vote as the best looking bookstore ever in terms of layout and for being the most accomodating (they are open 24-7!).
The Simpsons movie gave me a great laugh. My first encounter with this cartoon was in 1989 even before it started showing back home. My mother bought me a red shirt from SM and it had the characters emblazoned in front. Who would have thought that they would turn out to be such a phenomenon.
I finally got to sample the pesto sauce I bought and good heavens it was so similar to the one on Germany! Comfort food...that is all I need as I face life's uncertainties head on...Who am I fooling...I think I need a drink...
"Baby girl, close your eyes.
You don't know the strength you have inside
If I could I'd shelter you from all the pain that we all must go through
But it's up to you.

The road is long - it twists and turns
But everything in life you live and learn
No one ever said that life was easy or that all in love is fair
But look inside your heart you'll find the answer waiting there

If you ever lose your way
You don't have to be afraid
Look inside to find a friend
Who'll be with you 'til the end
Many different roads to choose
Searching for the strength to make it through
But it was always there in you

Hopes can fail and dreams can fade
Rain can fall down on your big parade
Maybe love will take your heart or break your heart
There are no guarantees
But love will always find you when you just believe

If you ever lose your way
You don't have to be afraid
Look inside to find a friend
Who'll be with you 'til the end
Many different roads to choose
Searching for the strength to make it through
But it was always there in you

The strength you're longing to find
You know it's true
It was there all the time
If you stand stronger, work harder, reach for the sky
I know you will eventually fly

If you ever lose your way
You don't have to be afraid
Look inside to find a friend
Who'll be with you 'til the end
Many different roads to choose
Searching for the strength to make it through
But it was always there
It was always there
It was always there...in you."

The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants soundtrack

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Becoming Jane


Finding Passion in Jane Austen
By Lev Grossman

Much of the present enthusiasm for Jane Austen can be credited to a 70-year-old screenwriter named Andrew Davies. In 1995 Davies adapted Pride and Prejudice for the BBC. Presumably after sacrificing a pudding to the ghost of the departed Austen, he added a scene in which Colin Firth, as Mr. Darcy, takes a swim in a pond and emerges with his Regency-era nipples visible through his wet shirt. It's an iconic moment precisely for what it doesn't show: no skin is revealed, nobody touches anybody, but there's more sex in the air, in invisible, intangible form, in those 2 minutes than in 100 hours of softcore Cinemax writhings.

Davies has now adapted four of Austen's six finished novels: he wrote the 1996 TV production of Austen's Emma, and he has Northanger Abbey and Sense & Sensibility in the pipeline for Masterpiece Theater next year. (He also adapted both of the Austenesque Bridget Jones novels.) "I've been a bit shameless about butching them up a bit," he says merrily. "I wrote a wood chopping scene for [Sense & Sensibility's] Edward, who's the rather shy, bashful one. I thought he ought to do something a bit active. It happened to be pouring down with rain at the time, so I think I might have written another wet shirt scene."

That he might. It was a cliché 10 years ago to say that the Austen phenomenon was big. It has now burst completely out of its bodice. Jane Austen, who recorded the last gorgeous gasp of pre-industrial England, has herself become a thriving, throbbing industry. Pride & Prejudice alone sold 318,000 copies last year, according to Nielsen BookScan, and this is to say nothing of the numerous spinoffs by other, lesser hands that imagine the later life of Elizabeth Darcy, or her sex life, or recast her and her husband (or Austen herself) as detectives (the winning title in this category has to be Suspense & Sensibility).

And books are the least of it. Becoming Jane, an Austen biopic starring Anne Hathaway, opens this week. September will bring the movie of The Jane Austen Book Club. Masterpiece Theater is currently re-filming four of the novels—Mansfield Park, Northanger Abbey, Persuasion, and Sense & Sensibility—in preparation for a marathon broadcast of The Complete Jane Austen next year. We can't seem to put down Austen, or leave her alone, or get to the end of her. She has become a commodity for which there is an infinite demand.

On the face of it Austen is an unlikely object for cult worship. She was born in 1775 in Hampshire, England, the seventh of a country clergyman's eight children. She received a smattering of education. She later moved to the city of Bath, which she didn't much care for. She is known to have received one marriage proposal, from a younger man with the odd name of Harris Bigg-Wither, which she at first accepted and then, a day later, declined. Although she started writing fiction in 1789, Austen didn't publish a novel until 1811; all of her six novels would appear anonymously. Six years later she was dead of an unspecified illness. By our standards she barely seems to have lived at all.

But there she is onscreen in Becoming Jane, vital and vivacious, although Anne Hathaway, with her broad mouth and her un-pin-uppably wavy hair, doesn't much resemble the one authenticated image we have of Austen, a sketchy portrait by her sister Cassandra that now hangs in the U.K.'s National Portrait Gallery. (Olivia Williams, who starts in the upcoming tele-bio-pic Miss Austen Regrets, can claim the better likeness.) Irrepressible and unconventional, Jane plays cricket and the piano, scribbles in her bedroom, and flirts with a witty but financially precarious young lawyer named Tom Lefroy, played by James McAvoy (you may recognize him as the faun from the Narnia movie, though here he's more of a satyr). Lefroy is not only rudely handsome, he's at least partly historically factual—there was a real Lefroy, with whom Austen really flirted. "He has but one fault, which time will, I trust, entirely remove," Austen wrote in a letter to Cassandra. "It is that his morning coat is a great deal too light."

Ultimately the flirtation came to nothing, and Lefroy went on to marry an heiress and become Lord High Justice of Ireland. Becoming Jane does its best to flesh out an episode about which historical information is scant, since Cassandra burned most of the relevant letters. Much is made of suggestive maybe-coincidences, like the fact that Lefroy would name his first daughter Jane. But the result is stately and quite affecting, and the matter it inquires into is one of the supreme mysteries in all of literary biography: Austen, the greatest chronicler of romantic courtship in any era and any language, never married. While her characters passed by the dozen into the Promised Land, she remained behind.

This curious fact underscores a truth frequently neglected about Austen's England, that life there was often difficult and painful for women. Unless they were fortunate enough to have some kind of financial autonomy, women were essentially forced to sell themselves as commodities on the marriage market. The possibility of downward mobility was ever-present, lurking beneath the thin ice of their own charm and attractiveness. To preserve their value, women worked hard to safeguard their fragile sexual respectability, as defined by the Byzantine social codes of the day.

Austen's adapters have to tread a perilously narrow, wobbly line between grim historical honesty and the seductions of Regency glamour. "Because it's very pretty clothes and very pretty houses, the danger is that it just looks very chocolate-boxy and cute, an escapist thing really," says Julian Jarrold, who directed Becoming Jane. "Part of the point of the piece is how dictated economics and money were, and the whole marriage market, and how that dominated women's lives." The margins of Austen's novels are strewn with miserable spinsters and hollow marriages—her stories end happily, but she always makes it clear that her heroes and heroines are the exceptions, the lucky statistical outliers. "I've got a bit of an argument with a lot of the more traditional admirers of Jane Austen, and also fans of costume drama," says Davies. "These are stories about young men and women at a very crucial time in their lives, when they're boiling over with hormones, and they're in a society in which—for the girls at any rate—you usually only get one chance of getting it right, and if you don't you're on the shelf for life, and often financially disadvantaged." He pauses for reflection. "Although I must say, I do like the costumes."

It may have been brutal and unfair, but it is an essential aspect of Austen's authorial personality that she did not rail against the system she wrote about, or try to change it. "The real Austen is very satiric, and ironic," says Claudia Johnson, a professor of English at Princeton whose books include Jane Austen: Women, Politics, and the Novel. "She's very dubious about the world she lives in, but she's not radical, or revolutionary. She does try to explore ways of finding pockets of resistance and independence in a world that's pretty grim." Austen is not, in other words, a Romantic rule-defying rebel. (Charlotte Bronte, queen of the Romantic novel, on Austen: "she ruffles her reader by nothing vehement, disturbs him by nothing profound: the Passions are perfectly unknown to her; she rejects even a speaking acquaintance with that stormy Sisterhood.") There is a suggestion of Orwellian despair in Austen: as in 1984, her characters cannot hope to break the iron cage around them, can only clear a little space inside it where they can be themselves. Austen's upper lip is defiantly stiff. (Johnson notes, fascinatingly, that at the turn of the 20th century, Austen's reputation was as a man's novelist, not a woman's—her hard-boiled, buttoned-down, unsentimental attitude was considered insufficiently feminine.)

Austen played the game, in other words, and she knew it was a game. But that doesn't mean she denied herself pleasure in the skill with which she played. This may, paradoxically, represent a hidden source of her current appeal: in our present period of romantic anarchy, when men and women are socially and financially equal, and love is supposed to be about hooking up and breaking the rules, Austen made the delicate art of obeying rules—even cruel, arbitrary rules—sexy. "I wonder if the fact of the formality of getting together, the rules of engagement, the obstacles that are necessary to overcome, have an appeal for young women," says Rebecca Eaton, executive producer of Masterpiece Theater's The Complete Jane Austen. "Particularly now, where getting together is pretty easy. Maybe there is an appeal to it — a yearning for it." It's certainly true of Austen's art, if not of her life. "I think these Jane Austen stories have a great advantage over contemporary stories," Davies says, "in that you can delay the actual consummation of love till the very end of the book, in fact after the end of the book. Whereas modern stories, very often they f--- on the first date, and where's the story going to go after that?"

In her life Austen played the marriage market and lost, but it's presumptuous of us to assume that she was unhappy because of it. After all, there are other kinds of happy endings besides love, and this is a truth that Austen surely knew, even if she chose not to write about it in her work. "Don't you think there's great happiness in writing a novel like Pride & Prejudice?" asks Johnson. "I think she enjoyed her life. Writing was a passion too."