Light fades from within

It has been a week since I last held you, talked to you, listened to you up close. Now we are separated by continents and time zones. I cry as I recall how you described me in those last moments when we desperately clung to each other knowing that it would be the last time that we shall ever do it. I was supposed to be your angel sent to you at the lowest point in your life to bring you back. But what about now when you are again at the lowest point in your career and I am not there to comfort you. In fact, I think I am the cause of this sadness in your life right now. You told me earlier that you had walked towards the direction of Greenbelt a few days ago with nary a reason why and then suddenly sadness just came in to haunt you as a mere memory. I am the reason for this and I can only hope you forgive me for this heartbreak. 

I sit here thinking heck I am not that passionate about law much as I would pretend to. I want so much to go back to you. But I know I can't right now. I don't know what to do. I just pray that He will enlighten us both and lead us to what is the most appropriate path to our happiness. 

You will always be home

I never cried so much like today. It was similar to stabbing someone in the back. Only this time it was front and center zeroing in on the heart. 

I rue the day that will remind me of what I have done. You will always be the one who taught me how to love. And that is enough reason to hold you in my heart forever. 

You jump, I jump

Tears continuously flowed as I listened to My Heart Will Go On. I knew the reason why I could not push myself to finish packing. I didn't want to leave this happy state - where someone cared for me that much. Why was I giving up this love? My heart could not understand just as my mind knew why.

Jack Dawson: I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count.

Rose: I"ll never let go Jack. I"ll never let go.