29 months

"You were the one I didn't want to lose."

"You are my angel"

Hearing those words broke my heart even more as I knew you did not realize that it was my choice that broke us apart. My choice seemed to have left you all alone in a different world, one without me and one full of uncertainties and difficulties. 

And that's what makes me cry all the more. I cry because I'm guilty. I cry because I was cruel to have done this to a wonderful heart. And yet you think you don't deserve my tears.

In a score's time, we shall be both old and gray. And maybe just maybe I would regret having done this for the rest of my life.

Time stops.

Tears fall.

For a love that was to disappear

Because of my cowardice.

We were both holding on to such sweet sorrow

Never wanting it to end.

Your second chance might move away 

But you were not sure

You thought I was being held back 

But I wanted to be

In my heart

You are the one that got away.

The spirit of youth

If the world's best boxer can set his mind to train like what he was at 20, then so can I. I am finding it difficult to study right now. Something is holding me back. I find it all the more unsettling that my experience may count for nothing as I try to look for a job that suits my qualifications. 

I had always imagined that this year will be all about change. I guess it's time to do the inevitable.