Unfair

I cried. I gave it a shot thinking he can be the one I can give my all without fear. But there was a twist. And it seemed to be the greatest dilemma that I had to face. It is so unfair. I had never done any bad thing to deserve something like this. I prayed but it seems God was not making his answers clear to me. Or maybe I was not listening. My heart felt so bruised and battered. The only thing I can do now is call out to Him for mercy and compassion. I need your help Lord for I know not what to do.

The bite

What if I bit the apple? Would I be happy now? Or will I remain haunted for a long time? Would my family be able to survive this crisis? Will I be able to overcome the guilt? All these questions are what ifs. I looked forward to a joyful life but instead found myself staring into the abyss. Was it all worth it?