Peaceful love

I could feel it breaking in smithereens. Over and over again. He had his demons. I think I was not enough to rid him of it. I could feel his pain. It must have been a very lonely life for so many years. 

I still did not know him that much. Now I am afraid. I was willing to jump, to free fall, to take the risk. But will our love ever be enough? I want to cry right now but tears are not falling. He said he did not want my pity but just my understanding.

In the other room are my parents who keep on hoping and praying. If they only knew that I wished for the same. But it seems that a peaceful love would elude me. For how long, I wonder? 

Sighting

It's been a long time since I last saw you, Bruce. Is it a sign? Is it the one I've been waiting for? 

More

My heart continues to break...over and over again. It seems that nothing can heal it, not even a love so great but forbidden. We find ourselves caught in the web of society's norms. Thus, we cannot love freely. 

I realize that love may not be enough. I want more. 

Wellness

A myoma, hepatic cyst, lowered HDL, etc. I wonder what else will come out of this check up. I was initially sad but now more angry. This cannot be. I should have greater resolve in implementing a lifestyle change. And he is in agreement with me. Will this be a joint effort? We shall see.