The Heart at Peace

The Chairman said - even if you have the most talented or harworking person in front of you, if the person’s heart is not in his work, then it is useless. No matter how much you pay that person, it will never work. It was like a thunderbolt hit me upon hearing those words. And I knew I had to pray harder than ever before. It wasn’t just my physical health on the line. But my mental and emotional states, the peace that I have been longing for. I wanted it badly when I still had time. I wanted it now. Lord will you give it to me soon?

New house

"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on: you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently he starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself." — C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity