Unfair

I spent the night with you. I never felt so loved and lonely at the same time. I could not tell anyone except You. I kept on asking why can this not be conventional. Why was I not normal? Why did I always veer off course? Why was I never in love and happy - from an LDR to an SS to an unrequited to a forbidden one. Each one brought me a different kind of pain, a hurt that I had difficulty overcoming. I pray everyday that my heart be okay. But my call never seemed to be heard. Or maybe it was answered in bits and pieces that I could not put together on my own. I think I’ve reached past the breaking point. I don’t know what to do anymore. 

The Dream

Is there someone else? No. But there is the dream of someone else. 

- You’ve Got Mail

Playing tricks

I just said it aloud. And He answered. Direct to the point. What did I wish? To see Bruce. And if I saw him, it meant that I would see Joseph soon. Then right in front of me flies Bruce and even lingers for a second or two by coming back before leaving. I could sense my entire body easing up, wanting to laugh. God really had a great sense of humor and I was always capturing it. But will it be this time?