The end is near

I suddenly seem to get tired easily. Must be the signs of growing old. Our bodies age by the day and we cannot simply do the things we used to do when we were young. But that is exactly the point. We only live once so make use of your time here on earth. Always live life to the fullest.

I know that there will be a series of goodbyes. A third round for me. I wonder will I ever come back this time? What does the future hold? My faith sustains me with the hope that God has chosen this path for me and I shall do my best for His greater glory.

The 39 year old child

I hate it that my future or my happiness is being determined by the green buck. I long for the past when I worked because I liked to and not because I needed to. The difficulty is the fact that I am inflicting pain on my parents. It saddens me that much that I begin to think am I really that stupid to give all this up. 

But in my heart I know that what I am doing is right. And that is all that matters right now. 

Both the good and the bad

In one day I received both the best and worst news. My cousin in law died this dawn after struggling with brain cancer for 2 1/2 years. It was painful to see his young wife and very young children. Such courage in the face of adversity!

On the good side, I finally got wind that I got the scholarship. One of the interviewers advised me of such, even adding that I was excellent and received four very high marks from him. I was assured that being on the top of the list, I would really get the award.

So there you have it. We should live to the fullest each day because we never know what will happen next.

Aiming high

So it came to pass that I did not get into Cambridge. Quite a disappointment. But also quite a big relief that UCL extended an unconditional offer. This means I will be gone for a year. I do wonder what the future holds for me. It would be nothing less than the best if I may say so for God directed me towards this path.