How green is it

I cried so much today. I had not gotten the internship, which for me was my last chance to transition to a field I think I would prosper in. With that, I was again left to my own devices. Should I continue to work in a field I was not actually interested in just because of the high pay and prestigious title? The option of total abandonment strikes me as promising. 

I had been turned down before because I was old. I was mocked at because they made a mistake of having me interviewed for a practice area different from what I applied for. I was laughed at for attempting to apply for a role that was nowhere related to legal. And from my first interview for my law school admission, I had always been received with skepticism. 

Maybe I should have listened a long time ago to the inner voices. Law never loved me and I never loved it back. 

It is useless to pretend for the sake of fame and fortune. Unfortunately for me, it refuses to let me go.