Giving up

Just Blue Sky

Words To Live By
An excerpt from No Glass Ceiling, Just Blue Sky
By Marcy Blochowiak

 

Dream what you want to dream;
Go where you want to go;
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
And one chance to do all the things
You want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying
And everyone around you was smiling
Live your life so at the end
You're the one who is smiling and everyone
Around you is crying.

- Anonymous

Now

Anatomy of a love

Clear blue water, high tides came and brought you in
And I could go on and on, on and on
And I will
Skies grow darker, currents swept you out again
And you are just gone and gone, gone and gone
In silent screams and wildest dreams
I never dreamed of this

This love is good, this love is bad
This love is alive back from the dead
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me

Tossing, turning, struggle through the night with someone new
And I could go on and on, on and on
Lantern, burning, flickered in my mind for only you
But you were still gone, gone, gone
Been losing grip, sinking ships
You showed up just in time

This love left a permanent mark
This love is glowing in the dark
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me

Your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave
Your smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees
When you're young you just run
But you come back to what you need

A thousand times

Something in me died again today. That hope of a future with you. I guess I was a fool. You were just an excuse to leave the past behind permanently. 

It hurts thousand times. I am so envious of other people's happiness. I must be paying for what I did to her. I want to be alone and cry loudly. But I am not alone in this house. I want to leave.

Brighter than Sunshine

I never understood before.

I never knew what love was for.

My heart was broke, my head was sore -

What a feeling.

Tied up in ancient history,

I didn't believe in destiny.

I look up, you're standing next to me -

What a feeling.

What a feeling in my soul -

Love burns brighter than sunshine,

Brighter than sunshine.

Let the rain fall, I don't care.

I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.

Suddenly, you're mine;

And it's brighter than sunshine.

I never saw it happening.

I'd given up and given in.

I just couldn't take the hurt again -

What a feeling.

I didn't have the strength to fight.

Suddenly, you seemed so right.

Me and you -

What a feeling.

What a feeling in my soul -

Love burns brighter than sunshine.

It's brighter than sunshine.

Let the rain fall, I don't care.

I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.

Suddenly, you're mine.

And it's brighter than the sun.

It's brighter than the sun.

It's brighter than the sun, sunshine.

Love will remain a mystery,

But give me your hand, and you will see.

Your heart is keeping time with me.

What a feeling in my soul -

Love burns brighter than sunshine.

It's brighter than sunshine.

Let the rain fall, I don't care.

I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.

Suddenly, you're mine.

I got a feeling in my soul.

Love burns brighter than sunshine,

Brighter than sunshine.

Let the rain fall, I don't care.

I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.

Suddenly, you're mine.

I got a feeling in my soul.

Love burns brighter than sunshine.

It's brighter than sunshine.

Let the rain fall, I don't care.

I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.

Suddenly, you're mine.

And it's brighter than sunshine.

Hoping against hope

There was someone who loved me for what I am. And I wanted to love someone who I was not sure loved me for what I am. 

I try to put up a brave front. But deep inside, I want to shed the tears that have formed a pool of sadness. If anyone stares into my eyes right now, they will know.

The priest in today's mass quoted Mother Teresa - "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." The priest affirmed that it was better to have loved and be hurt than not to have loved at all. 

I am hurting. And only God can heal me. 

The storm before the calm

I will be patiently waiting

Bread

The best bread is in that English bakery in Boracay. How can it be that we both knew of this? How can it be that we have the same books by Michael Lewis, read the same magazines like Vanity Fair? How can it be that you also get confused with elevator signs and that you have motion sickness while traveling on airconditioned buses? You are good in math as I am too. 

But obviously you are not into me as I am into you. 

Thank you for the memories of the past two months.

Lola's words

For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: "It might have been!" John Greenleaf Whittier

There he goes

A flash of lightning in the distant sky. That's what my mother called you. Will you ever come back. Only fate can tell.