Hoping against hope

There was someone who loved me for what I am. And I wanted to love someone who I was not sure loved me for what I am. 

I try to put up a brave front. But deep inside, I want to shed the tears that have formed a pool of sadness. If anyone stares into my eyes right now, they will know.

The priest in today's mass quoted Mother Teresa - "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." The priest affirmed that it was better to have loved and be hurt than not to have loved at all. 

I am hurting. And only God can heal me.