How is this to end

Viola De Lesseps: I loved a writer and gave up the prize for a sonnet. 

William Shakespeare: I was the more deceived. 

Viola De Lesseps: Yes, you were deceived, for I did not know how much I loved you.

[Saying their goodbyes]

William Shakespeare: You will never age for me, nor fade, nor die.

Escape

Move on

Those two words stabbed through my heart repeatedly

I have never felt more sorrow

If people only knew 

Why it pained me

I now know there can never be an us

Because of the circumstances

I just wish it could be easier

It is always difficult to remove hope in one's being

For what has been planted continues to grow

I remain constant

I wish to disappear now.

Fight

My boss looked frail. The cancer did not rob her of her spunk though. It saddened me all the more. Losing hope was the name of the game. It was as if the universe was sending me a message and I was being bull headed. I often learned the hard way but maybe not this time. Was there such a thing as a second coming? I could only wish. 

Feeling broken

My so-called life

Reunions

The reality of mortality hits

My parents' generation are in the twilight of their existence

Makes me think of my own life

And how staid it is

Nothing eventful nor significant

I feel like a leaf falling on the ground with no one noticing

Seeing my niece made me think all the more 

I want to have a legacy just like her

I want to have what everyone seemed to be having

Hollow to the core is what I feel

No amount of cheer or scare tactics can make me smile

I should be grateful still

For the next 35 years or more will be God-given.

I long to hold someone's hand in public

I yearn to kiss someone's lips in private

I crave to love someone unconditionally

Will I ever get the chance.

The return of the bat

At 11:20pm last night

I saw Bruce

Giving me a glimpse

However so fleeting

Was this the sign? 

I could only hope.

Of dots and my gut

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life”- Steve Jobs

Don't say goodbye

I do not know what to believe anymore 

Why did I have to see your involvement with both 

A year ago I lost a second love the second time

A year later here I am thinking of a sad and lonely future

Maybe it's all for the best

To turn off the switch

Maybe the miracle did not lie in something happening

It rested on me changing my feelings

It hurts so much that I cannot sleep

Peace again eludes me

Wilł I ever have a love so true? 

I hold on, silent and grieving. 

Keeping it together

Hopeful and determined

It is year 2007

I remained in faith

I fell 

I was determined

And where am I now? 

Learning from the past 

In the hopes of a happy future.

Just believe 

His will be done. 

Scarred

My mind is blank

But my heart is not

How silently it grieves

From a death to being unrequited

Why must it be this way

If only I could disappear 

Just to make it easier

For my wound to heal.

Frozen

And I mean Nothing

Good and great

The priest said aim for goodness not greatness. I want both. But being good should come first. And then, one can become great. Which is actually more of a bonus. 

Your only purpose

Was for me to cut it permanently. No going back. And that was that.