Delusion

You made your choice

I was never really in the running

The chance vaporized into thin air

Why did I believe

Why did I choose not to read the signs

Why is it so difficult to accept 

When there was nothing between us 

Except that connection which I never got from anyone else

Time passes and wounds heal

Maybe I will understand a decade from now

But right now I refuse to.

Giving up

Wrenched

To see is to believe. Or rather to be told is to believe. What else should I see - a picture of her attending his uncle's wake, a ring on the fourth finger of her left hand, a picture of her shot from the side shopping in a bridal dress sale (I know that fat silhouette from any angle) and what is more disconcerting is the fact that it is the same designer that I also liked! And then I also see a picture of his ex wearing their infinity necklace! 

Please give me a break Lord from this madness for I can no longer take it.