The Pain

Bright futures

Timeless

"When we’re speaking about love, it is never too late." - Letters to Juliet

Free

This must be the loneliest birthday I've ever had. Caught in the quandary of feeling loved and being the other woman. My heart says yes but my mind says no. I have been stupid for so many times that maybe I am unable to distinguish anymore.  

How naive can I get? Should I feel used? 

But definitely the loneliness is getting to me, more so this day. My former boyfriend cannot even recall my birthday. 

No silver lining in sight. I don't want to be pitied.

Fuzzy

I have fallen. Mightily. God has given me the kindest and most generous person. I know now why I had to grieve before. But how can I have him all to myself? It's an impossibility! I want the permanence of this love. There I said it. You belong to me. And I you. 

Losing hope

Bare

Is there such a thing as a Brazilian waxing virgin? I guess that would be me. I just laughed it off. Some parts were really painful. But as they say, mind over matter. And all I can say is it does make a difference! Well, we shall see in the next few days if it was worth it. :-P

True form

I think I have found him. For two hours we talked last night and he appeared to be the most generous and considerate man I have ever been with, true and honest and very open. I told him I had been drawn to him and he proceeded to enumerate the reasons. I could not believe it but he hit the nail on its head.

My gut says this is for real. So how can it be not good. I ask God for help to make this happen because I think he is the answer to my prayers. Or even my dad and mom's daily prayer. 

I think I an falling. I am very much afraid to make mistakes along the way. But I want all of these to be true.