Free

This must be the loneliest birthday I've ever had. Caught in the quandary of feeling loved and being the other woman. My heart says yes but my mind says no. I have been stupid for so many times that maybe I am unable to distinguish anymore.  

How naive can I get? Should I feel used? 

But definitely the loneliness is getting to me, more so this day. My former boyfriend cannot even recall my birthday. 

No silver lining in sight. I don't want to be pitied.