Floating

Isn't it sad. I am 43. A recent victim of unrequited love. But now tied to a person who is everything that I hoped for except for the fact that he is married. I have cysts in my breasts that continue to multiply. I have a myoma in my uterus. I have gained 10 pounds in the last year. My face has started to break out again. Most of my clothes don't fit. I frequently am in tears recently for various reasons. I experienced separation anxiety leaving my last job. I met up with them last week and realized I was no longer part of their world. I am not really into my new role. It's more for paying the bills. I have never found work that fulfilled me. I continue to float. My heart hurts like hell and no one can hear it.